i have a cat.



his name is Opie.
he came out of the forest about half of this size.
he needs a good home.

summer was bittersweet.

now time for work.

this year is going to be amazing.

quick refresher:

mace (x2).
pizza at ma fischer's.
daddy's.

that about covers it.

i feel like i need a revelation.

i don't want to be stuck here anymore.

title says it all.
Just saw a commercial on TV that makes me beyond pissed.
it shows clips of a bunch of savannah employees smoking cigarettes on their breaks, time off from work, etc- all outside, all putting out the cigarettes on the ground.
now, i was unaware that this is apparently a huge issue to the City of Savannah.
forget that we still do not have ample lighting in city streets, forsyth park is still unsafe to go to, and someone got shot infront of locos the other day- NO- these are not the important issues. HOWEVER, keeping savannah clean for the tourists IS.
i call BULLSHIT on the City of Savannah.
commercial idea= "cigarette filters are no biodegradable." - NOT "look at these dickheads"
go ahead spend and tax payer's money on stupid commercials, and make the hard working citizens of savannah look like assholes, but GOD FORBID you give them a couple extra lights on city streets.

a big FUCK YOU to the City of Savannah.

so i'm pretty sure that sasquatch is a guy in a gorilla suit. i want to find him and ask if i can intern.

just.
fml.

interview for american greetings couldn't have gone better.
the guy loved my work. said i was the best he's seen out of the whole group. it's funny cuz the work i sent in i don't consider my best- it's good for commercial photography, but none of my conceptual work. either way, he couldn't get over my work. he said it's exactly what they're looking for. hell yea.
the internship pays $12/hr and they house you.
only thing-
it's in cleveland. kinda far from home. it's ten weeks. i'll have all of august back home...but still...it's going directly from the end of the quarter, move in to new apt, go to internship.
i'm really starting to miss home.
i get to see my family next week, thank god. it's starting to feel like forever.
but i still haven't seen my friends or even tony in months. it's really starting to suck. i atleast want one video ichat conversation.

i just went to an interview for a studio in FL with a pretty well-known commercial photographer. it didn't go as well as the american greetings interview, but it's another possibility. professionally speaking, if i got the Studio B internship it would be much more beneficial to my overall career...but it's so fucking far away. and they don't pay. i almost want to just get one or the other so fate can just choose for me.

i feel like the most exciting events of my life are slowly screwing me over.



but i got a huge ego boost in class today.
they loved my work.
my professor who worked for warhol said my work was beautiful.
holla.
time to take more pictures.

so here's my new philosophy considering myself as a photographer:

i don't generally love any of my work.
i don't know what anyone wants from me.
i don't know who i am as a photographer.

suck my balls.

so i didn't make it into silver and ink (scad's once a year publication/show...aka biggest deal of the year). it basically says you're good/you suck.

on the other hand,
within two hours i recieved two seperate phonecalls on two seperate internships.
one is in milwaukee.
the better one is not.
fml.

another student from my hometown last weekend of a drug overdose. she was fifteen. my little brother went to high school with her. third time in a year.
i'm scared for my youngest brother.
i'll let this explain how i feel=

i've realized there's something kinda nice about being sick.
you have an excuse to just slow down, lay in bed, and have a big ol cup of nyquil.

usually the stomping coming from the tiny girl that lives upstairs bothers me before i'm about to sleep. but not tonight. i'm in my basement, in milwaukee, with my mom running around the kitchen preparing dinner. if only elizabeth could mimic my mother's footsteps.

Sara,
I saw pictures of your new kitchen- beautiful.
How are things down south? Up north it is very cold and a lot of snow. We need sun (a warm sun) to melt it.
I'm still quilting up a storm. I met another quilter here and she suggested starting a "Stichin and Bitchin" group.

Love,
Grandma.

today was an oddly emotional day.
i woke up for class alone. alex (the little tuxedo cat in the alleyway) followed me to the bus stop and saw me get on safely.
i get to my photo class, get literally screamed at my professor for interupting her (unknowingly) twice. she must be stressed out over something unrelated, so i can't really blame her. my prints were okay, but of course, to dark (my awesome eye problem).
i get on the scad bus to go to arnold. i hate taking the scad bus, i like the city bus much better, atleast people are courteous. some of the students just seem to propel the "scad kid" stereotype, by being obnoxious, unaware, selfish and rude. simple example= 7 students get on the bus, 4 find seats, 3 are being occupied by backpacks. what do the students with their beloved satchels do? nothing. not even a "hey, there's a seat over here"- no. the 3 kids stand.
i arrive at my psychological realism in literature class and we watched on of the most awesomely depressing movies- 'The Hours'. one woman almost kills her self, another does kill herself, one man who has aids also kills himself. great movie, but very deep. it gets you thinking and quite possibly crying.
today was weird. bittersweet. and it's only 4 pm.

http://www.craigslist.org/about/best/hud/989846284.html

plz watch youtube video also.

"that was awsome. that was really awsome, guys"

the Obama speech was amazing...but just to put the icing on the cake, i present to you, Dr. Joseph Lowery...

i miss you.
i miss my family.

Name 4 favorite animals and with them, 2 NON-PHYSICAL characteristics as to why you like them.

I wrote:

1. Cat- constantly aware of surroundings, independent.
2. Dog- Easy communication, loyal.
3. Elephants- Defend young, when one dies, member of family stays behind.
4. Wolf- Adapted to completely avoid all human contact, but very social in packs.



Representation:

1. How you view yourself.
2. How others view you.
3. How you are with love.
4. How you really are.

shut the fuck up already.

i'm incredibly fucking sick of seeing these updates on facebook

Soandso...
"...hates everyone"
"...why does no one care"
"...hates life"
"...hates savannah"
"...wants everyone to stop loving me"
"...is whinning fucking whinning"


SHUT THE FUCK UP

how old are we????
i feel like i'm in 7th fucking grade again! me me me me pay attention to memememememememe poor fucking mememememe

you are not the victim. life does not suck.
so suck it the fuck up.

starts tomorrow.
fun ends.
work begins.

so tonight should be epic. i hope.